and I found a person from my past on Facebook, a person who I had hurt and I thought again to make amends. Its been a few days now and I was hoping to hear something back because some of the things I did to the person were really nasty and I hoped my apology would make some kind of difference even years later.
Its been silence so far and I understand. People move on. This was decades ago. Maybe this person wants to avoid the whole thing. I get it. I’ll just keep remembering this person in my prayers and hope they’ve moved on. But this is the last time for me as well.
I can’t change what happened back then and I can’t change the person it happened to. I was young, dumb, self-centered and sinful but several times over the years I tried to find a way and nothing came of it. Again I understand. People make their choices and I choose to stop apologizing.
I’ve done my part. I’ve tried to say what needed to be said. I wish I could live it all over again so it would be different but if there is no response I choose to move on as well having done all I could do.
There’s a relationship in forgiveness. Apologies need to be offered, and I certainly I needed to do this in this case. Yet there has to be a response as well and if none is given then the offender has done their part and can do no more. I simply can’t be held captive by this anymore. I’ve opened my door and it will stay open but I’m also moving on.
Yet I still understand. Some hurts can’t be settled with words and the silence is probably to be expected. God bless this person, give them all good things, grant them mercies greater than the hurts I’ve caused.
But now its time to move on down the road.